The following excerpt is from the book Broken: My Story of Addiction and Redemption by William Cope Moyers.
…Addiction is at the core of my being, and I cannot escape its terrible truth, its eternal flame at the center of everything that I am and ever will be. I can no more leave it behind than I could remove my lungs and still breathe or cut my vocal cords and continue to talk. My disease is less about the drugs I took than the reason I took them – to blot out pain, to alter reality, to change perception, to numb my fear – because the deepest truth of my illness is my inability to live with what is right here, right in front of me. Accepting life on life’s terms – that’s the challenge. Even as I stay sober my dreams remind me of my relentless yearning to go back to the myth of what once was or to reach out for some imaginary heaven that lies just in front of me, out of my reach.
Backward or forward, it doesn’t matter as long as I don’t have to live in the pain of this moment. But when you’re trying to escape pain, there’s only one thing more difficult than living life drunk, and that’s living life sober.
In the book, Moyers talks about his struggles with addiction and being the son of acclaimed journalist Bill Moyers. While many of us may be affected by a loved one’s addiction to drugs or alcohol, we don’t always (or almost never) understand it. We don’t understand why the addicted person can’t stop, why they can’t think about anything but getting drunk or high, why they keep hurting themselves and those around them.
Addiction crosses all economic, racial, gender, age and social boundaries. It affects the addicted person and all who surround that person – at work, at home, in the community. On Tuesday, April 1st Crossroads for Women will offer another 4 week educational series, “The Effects of Addiction on Friends & Family” in Portland, ME. The series is designed for those who have a loved one that is addicted and is looking to understand the addiction and how it affects them. The series is held on Tuesday evenings, from 6:00pm – 7:30pm, in a positive, supportive environment.
From this blog: Read more about how addiction affects friends and family members
Resources, information for friends and family members
Al-Anon / Nar-Anon
211 Maine, health and human service information and resources
Crossroads for Women’s (Portland, ME) services for those affected by a loved one’s addiction